The Times They Are A-Changin'

It's only one day into 2007 and I'm having that impenetrable/palpable feeling things are gonna drastically change this year. I had this feeling with the advent of 2000. In January 2000, I had a discussion with a friend who also agreed 2000 was going to be a year of great change. And it was. Just today, my friend told me he's quitting his job next week. He's been bitching about quitting for months, but he officially gave notice. It's an end of an era, especially since he's been defined by his job for the past couple of years. This is the same friend I keep thinking I don't want to be friends with anymore because of certain incidents in the past, but then he somehow redeems himself and wins me over again. I actually accidentally spent part of New Year's Eve with him, and he was quite endearing towards me. He and I are in the same boat--both looking for better opportunities--so I will embrace his friendship and purpose in my life instead of fighting it.

Another sign of change: Last night I talked to Ex Boyfriend and if his father's condition doesn't improve, Ex Boyfriend may have to move home and take care of the family. I really hope it doesn't come to this because the thought of him moving away really saddens me. I'd hate for him to move back to the place he grew up. If he leaves, my safety net will be gone. But who knows at this point.

I'm also looking for a new job. I don't know how much longer I'll be toiling away at DePaul. I really want to find something I love if that's even possible at this point. I need to start pitching ideas to publications and hitting the pavement, but my brain is still on holiday. I'm feeling kinda numb and tired and don't want to work or write or anything--but I have to jump start the year and dive into the icy waters. Everything feels so anti-climatic right now. The holidays are over and I miss my friends and family. I'm really glad I got to spend quality time with everyone, though.

I know one thing that'll change in a few months is my living situation. Our lease is up in June. I'm not on the lease, but I do live there. We hate our neighbors, so no matter what, we'll be moving. June may be a good jumping off point for me to either move to NY or get my own place or something. I have a feeling my two roommates and I may be going our separate ways. I know this is 5 months away, but it'll be here before we know it. I can't even begin to consider this right now.

I think things will reverse themselves this year. What was wrong last year may be right this year and vice versa. For instance, I may decide I absolutely love hip-hop and dedicate my life to it. Doubt it, but I do kinda like Lupe Fiasco. I think when things are static for too long, events usually arise and jumble everything up. I'm waiting for more people from my past to come out of the woodwork. I'm waiting for DePaul Guy to make an appearance. Maybe he'll reverse his attitude towards me. Or not.

All I know is there's a seismic shift on the way.