Some Lines I've Been Given and the End Result

I've come to realize there is a pattern forming in my "relationships." I seem to get the "let's be friends" or "I'm not looking for someone" speech quite frequently. I'm beginning to wonder if there is some sort of manual guys own because all the speeches sounds exactly the same. Interesting. I usually can see the speech coming from miles away because when I guy is about to "dump" me, he suddenly becomes very distant and unresponsive. The following are a few lines I've been given by guys in the past year, summarized, and what happened afterwards. I'm keeping these as anonymous as possible:

1. "I think we should just be friends. I'm not looking for a girlfriend right now." Flash forward--2 months later said person gets a girlfriend making me realize it was me, not him. End Result: We are actually pretty good friends.

2. "I think we should just be friends. There's a void I'm not capable of filling that you're looking to ease." End Result: On friendly terms but only talk and see each other during certain events.

3. "I have a girlfriend. It'd make me feel guilty." End Result: Still talk once in a while when said person isn't M.I.A.

4. "I'm not looking to get involved with anyone right now. I'm trying to focus on other things." End Result: Good buds. With potential.

5. "I'm not looking to get involved with anyone right now." Goes on to mention a possible drinking problem, ex girlfriend, and school issues. End Result: Remains to be seen, but I would like to be friends.

6. "I'm not looking for a girlfriend." Later on, tells you he has a girlfriend which you realize is a blatant lie to deter you. Then tells you he's celibate so he can concentrate on school. All lies. End Result: We do not speak nor probably will again.

It seems like I'm really good at maintaining friendships with guys (once the initial burn rubs off which no matter how many times I hear these speeches, it still sucks). I think it's really important to do so or else you are going to make your life even more complicated and awkward. This town is so small, you never know when you'll run into someone or need someone to help you out. But some people, well, you just can't be friends with.

I admit I'm guilty of these speeches too, although when I don't like someone instead of telling them off, I just start to make excuses or start to ignore them. Actions speak louder than words. I hate to be ignored myself but when I am ignored, I get the picture really fast. When the feelings aren't mutual with guys, I stop returning calls, messages. I decide putting my energy into them isn't worth it. I just want to avoid confrontation. Ah, relationships. Don't they suck?

Today is the summer solstice; it's officially summer! I want to have a lot of fun of this summer instead of being so down in the dumps. I want things to finally come together. I want to find a cool job. I want people (ie guys) to quit being so fickle with me. I'm off to D.C tomorrow, which will be a nice kick off to the summer. Tonight I'm going to a drinking event--the right way to begin what will hopefully be a fruitful and long summer.