November

I can't believe it's already November. It's pretty much the end of the year now. Soon it'll be Thanksgiving, then Christmas, then New Year's, then 2008. Time goes so fast it's scary. This is my least fave time of the year. Last night I attempted to go the Halloween parade in Boystown, aka, the gay part of Chicago. I walked around for over an hour trying to find my friends. I'd never seen so many drag queens or smelled so much cologne in my life. I'd never been to a Halloween parade either, so it was interesting. After not being able to find my friends, I decided I couldn't take the crowd anymore so I went home. Lately I've also realized I'm out of the loop with some people. There are some people I haven't talked to in a while but really need to reconnect with them. I need to do a better job staying in touch with people sometimes. This town is so small and all the time I'm reminded of how everyone is connected.

This morning I went to the Art Institute because I have to write a 800 word article on a Jasper Johns show. Jasper is apparently a really iconic artist and this exhibit explores his use of gray in his paintings. The entire exhibit is gray artwork. I have no idea how I'm going to churn out 800 words on this. The exhibit was overwhelming with like 100 paintings or something. I mean, it's fascinating stuff and it makes you think, but I feel like I'm back in school trying to write a brilliant final term paper. I have two days to get it done so I'm sure it'll be okay. It was a press preview thing this morning so the general public hasn't even seen it yet. They had free coffee and muffins, too, which I'm all in favor for.

I've been feeling sort of blah this week. I just feel like everything is futile and everything stays the same. It's just another week of trying to keep my head above water. I really need to find a part time job before my money runs out. That's the problem with interning, you don't get paid (well, I did get a cupcake the other day and someone felt sorry for me and bought me lunch last week so I'll take that) but you also can't really work full-time. I just wish Time Out would hire me on already so at least I wouldn't have to worry about starving all the time. Then again, starving is a good thing because you lose weight--that is, if you don't eat Halloween candy for lunch. Anyway, I'm exaggerating a little. I guess I want things to progress in my life. How much longer can I keep struggling or going from failed relationship to the next before it becomes too much? I just want something to pan out for me. I work hard and I feel entitled to some sort of success and stability. It's also been weird lately that a few of my friends have started dating people. There are a few that ever since I've known them have been single, so it's an adjustment to see them with someone. It's also that thing where once a friend has a significant other, you never get them alone. They are always with that other person and once in a while you just want to go out with them sans significant other. So, I'm dealing with that right now. My fear is all my friends will find the right person and I'll simply be left alone. Oh well.

So, now I gotta spend the next 2 days writing this article on top of a couple of other things. Tomorrow night I'm going to see one of my fave bands in concert, Stars. I saw them live almost 2 years ago and they blew me away. Afterwards, I'm partaking in a Twin Peaks season 2 marathon with some friends. We are even having donuts and coffee, and if you're not familiar with that, donuts and coffee play important roles in the series. So, I got those things going for me. I'm also going to start using the word "ilk" in everything I write.

Finally, I've come up with a preliminary Christmas list. Here's what I want:

1. A job at Time Out or something equivalent.
2. Some new ear buds for my Ipod. The Ipod ones suck. I need better ones.
3. I would like to meet a guy, ie, one who doesn't have a girlfriend, one who isn't an alcoholic or has low self esteem or doesn't say derogatory things. At the same time, I don't want someone too normal, yet someone who's crazy in a good way, not a bad way. And if they like indie rock, the better their chances.
4. A plane ticket to France and maybe like $2000 cash to travel around Europe for a few weeks.
5. For everything in my life to quit being so hard and complicated (then again I should try to be more positive).
6. For a certain someone to ditch another certain someone (see #3).
7. A new digital camera that actually works well.
8. Furniture for my room.
9. Socks.

These are just a few things off the top of my head. If anyone can accommodate any or all of the above requests, I'd really appreciate it. Now onto good 'ol Jasper...