Getting What I Want

For the most part, I had a pretty low-key weekend. I think it was something I needed after having a stressful week. Thursday night was a bit crazy, though. I went to Sonotheque to hear a bunch of DJs play. I had interviewed the headliner, but to dismay, they forgot to put me on the list even though they said they would. I hate when that happens. Granted, it rarely does, but I wasn't happy about paying a cover especially when I wrote a 700 word article on these guys. But, whatever. The night consisted of a lot of dancing and fun. My girlfriend and I and had like ten of our guy friends following us around all night. I think she and I should have our own entourage. Whenever we go out, ten guys should always follow us and buy us drinks. Anyways, it was a late night and the next day I didn't feel so well. I had a bad headache and not much sleep.

Friday night I interviewed the lead singer of the band Le Loup before its performance. Usually, I do phoners, but doing in person interviews make me nervous. I think the interview went well. The musician I interviewed went to school in Ohio, so that's cool. Common interest. He also just quit his day job. He mentioned how he wasn't cut out for working in an office and I agreed. He lives pretty frugally but is able to get by. I stayed for their show and it was great. Saturday I hung out at a friend's place and today I went to an all-u-can-drink Bloody Mary bar and then to a Blackhawks game. I guess I had a pretty diverse weekend. I'm a huge fan of Bloody Mary bars: tomato juice, olives, celery, lemons, etc. Except this bar wasn't as good as the Bloody Mary one I went to in Galena. It still was good, though. I went to the Blackhawks (hockey) game because I got a couple of free tixs through Time Out. I took my friend who is a huge hockey fan. I was pretty bored throughout most of it, but then when it went into a final shoot out and we won, it became interesting. We beat Columbus. This entire week, I hardly drank. I think it might've been the first time in months this has occurred. I think I was just really focused on work, but sometimes a cocktail can assuage that stress build up. There needs to be a nice balance between work and social and I'm still trying to master that.

Even though it's spring, it remains chilly and rainy. I did see some buds trying to bloom on a tree. Spring will be here soon and hopefully will bring a sense of renewal and rebirth. It just has to. This winter has sucked. I'm optimistic things will get better. April will be here in two days and it's freaking me out a little. Time is going so fast and soon it'll be summer then the end of the year again. Two Aprils ago, I remember going to CA for a wedding. It was an interesting time in my life because I was on the verge of ending a relationship and had just got let go from a job. Last April was an even more interesting time. I threw a party and then got evicted. The anniversary is coming up in three weeks. As horrible as that experience was, it changed my life for the better. I met people that night that have become great friends and have affected me in many ways. So now I'm wondering what drama this April will bring. Hopefully good drama, eh?

I had a dream last night where my music editor told me I wasn't a good writer. I think my self-doubt creeps in sometime. I just put so much pressure on myself that I really stress myself out. I can't stop being hard on myself if I tried. Sometimes my dreams speak to me in weird ways. I'm at the point where I feel like not taking "no" for an answer. There's a quote that goes: "When you don't take no for an answer, there is still a chance you'll get what you want." I think I'm just going to be very aggressive and extreme in pursuing what I want from now on, in all areas of my life. I'm just hands down going to go for it.I'm also going to take this approach with men because I'm sick of the back and forth flirtations and sexual tension I sometimes experience. And no more dedicating my time to guys I'm not really interested in. Such a waste of time. All I really need is a guy to buy me nachos once in a while. Today my friend proposed that we start a website. I've been thinking about this on and off. I really want to translate my book I've been working on for years to a blog or website. I think it'd work really well. Her website idea is somewhat similar so I think we're going to join forces and come up with something great. She is in the same boat as me: sick of corporate jobs and wanting to do something creative with her life. I'm done working corporate office jobs. Seriously. I'm not doing it anymore. You can't make me. I'll occasionally do a short term temp gig once in a while, but nothing full-time. I've gotten to a place where I can't and shouldn't do it anymore, but we'll see.

I'm hoping this week won't be so hectic. I have a bunch of writing assignments to get through as usual. Tomorrow I'm working a marketing event then going to a concert. This coming weekend will be busy. I promised a few people some concert tixs for a show on Friday, but my friend who is hooking me up has failed to send them yet. I'm getting nervous. I hope I get them in time or I'll have some very angry people after me. Just another thing to worry about. Sigh. Anyway, I'm going to change some things about my life. For real, this time. No more fucking around.