Worker Bee

Yesterday, I started an indefinite temp job meaning it might last for a while unless of course I find a way to fuck it up, which I probably will. It's at a company I actually worked at for a couple of months last summer, so in a way, I'm back where I started. How do I always end up where I started? I'm doing accounting data entry and honestly, I have no clue what I'm doing. I've never been very good with numbers and I surely don't understand accounting lingo. I keep telling myself to be a good employee because I really need this job. It pays decently and as long as I don't get fired, I will be set. But knowing myself, I will become restless and try to fight the system. For some reason I can't access my email at work which is very frustrating. It blocked by one of those Websense things. I can get on Facebook, Myspace and IM without a problem, but I need to be able to respond to emails throughout the day because I get a lot of time sensitive messages from editors and such. So, I've been going to Kinkos or trekking all the way to the Apple Store to do email at lunch. I wish I could find a way around it. I know I shouldn't do personal stuff at work, but it's maddening to not have communication with the outside world all day. So, I keep giving myself pep talks. "Don't fuck this up, Garin." During the past few months, I've come to realize the importance of money and now realizes it buys freedom. I'm sick of being the poorest of my friends and not being able to afford food and such. I don't thinking having this "day job" is selling out or anything. I don't think I'm as against working a day job as much as I was before. I can't wait a month for a check. It'll be nice to be able to pay bills and hopefully save some money and actually travel. I keep telling myself I can do this until something better comes along because freelancing isn't paying all of my bills right now. So, here's hoping I can be a worker bee for a while and make some dinero. Plus I'm getting paid for most everything I write, so there's more money on top of my weekly check. I should use that as fun money or put it into savings.

Monday night we played another Saucony game and actually won. Hell, I even scored a run. Last night I did some Ipod DJing at a bar for the first time. This involved my friend the DJ plugging it into the system and blasting my playlist for like 10 people. I didn't really DJ and I wish more people would've been there, but it was fun to do and I hope to do more of it. Now I can't stop thinking about songs to add to my future playlists.

I have to move very soon, like two weeks soon and I only have one prospect now. I'm probably going to move to the South Loop for the month of August and live in this guy's high rise. He'll be in Europe for the month, so I can live alone for once. I need to check it out, but it overlooks the lake, has a pool, etc and sounds great. It'll buy me time to find another place I suppose. I just can't have roommates anymore. I can't do it. I need to find a way around it. Hopefully this place will pan out for a little bit and something else will come along. Right now I'm just trying to get my shit together because I have no other choice. I have to move and I have to have money, so I'm trying to take the necessary steps to get my life on track. I'll worry about my writing career in more detail later once I've established more stability for myself. I just want all of my current anxieties to quell a little like the demand for money and moving. I'll feel better once my situation stabilizes.

Right now I'm really tired. I'm not used to getting up so early. And I have a deadline tomorrow so I need to write some stuff. God, I hope everything falls nicely into place.