A Clean Slate

It's only a few days into the new year and everything feels the same. I don't know exactly what I expect, but everything just feels so anti-climatic. The past couple of days, my computer has been really messed up. The browsers keep crashing and won't open properly. This is a serious problem and no one seems to know how to fix it. I have a feeling I'm going to have to get a new computer soon. I just don't understand why things can't work. It makes everything much more stressful. Like I don't even know how I'm going to put the newsletter together this week. Yes, things still suck in 2009.

One thing I do like about a new year is having a clean slate. It's like you can start all over again, anew. The world is your oyster and anything is possible. It's up to you to make things happen. On NYE, I didn't really do much. The boyfriend and I had some champagne and pizza and then decided to go to a party at the last minute. We almost didn't go out at all. The party was fun--nothing special, really. I still don't understand why people pay a $100 to go to a bar and drink when they can just go to a house party. That makes more sense. On Jan. 1st, the world felt quiet. Eerily quiet. It's like the entire city was suffering from a massive hangover. I think it takes a while for things to pick up in the new year. Until next month, I think things might be pretty sluggish. I just want some things to change. I need to be proactive about a lot of things this year, but right now I'm having a hard time getting motivated. I want to start taking better care of myself. I want to figure out a way to sustain myself through my writing. The boyfriend and I are trying to come up with some sort of plan, but we got nothing so far. I want things to improve in the new year, somehow. I just need to fix things that are broken, both literally and figuratively. It's going to take some work and patience, though. I also need to get together with a lot of people I haven't seen in a while.

I also really want to travel in the new year. For some reason, I'm really obsessed with going to Luxembourg. The boyfriend says we can go if I really want to. I guess I need to think this through because I don't wanna get all the way over there and realize that it sucks. I'm torn between taking an European vacation versus a Caribbean one. Going overseas is more of a priority for me. I guess we'll see where we can get the best deal.

In the past few days, I've been trying to catch up with movies. I watched Revolutionary Road online and thought it was good but not great. I read the book a few years ago and fell in love with it. I think the acting is really strong in the movie, and it has all the makings of an Oscar film, but in the end, I was just a little disappointed. On New Year's Day, the boyfriend and I went to see The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. The movie was sold out. Guess everyone else had the same idea. Once again, I thought it was a well-made film, but it was way too long and sentimental. It reminded me a lot of Forrest Gump--probably because the same guy who wrote Forrest wrote this one. I do like the idea of aging backwards, though. The other night I watched The Wrestler, which I think is probably the best new movie I've seen lately. Mickey Rourke is really great in it. The movie is kinda depressing (like both aforementioned movies. What is it with the end of the year and depressing movies?) but in a good way. There are so many other movies I need to eventually see.

Anyway, Christmas vacation is over. Back to the grind. Here's hoping things start improving soon.