So, maybe I'm not so okay. On the way back to Chicago, I merged onto the freeway. It was pouring down rain, so the road was a little slippery. I guess I took the turn a bit fast. I ended up fishtailing, spinning around, and landing in a ditch. Holy shit. Luckily some dude in a minivan pulled over and helped push my car to safety. A few minutes later, I was on my way. The irony is half an hour before, my mom had scrubbed my car clean and lectured to me how I need to take better care of my car. After the "accident," my car was caked in mud. The situation could've been much worse, so I thank my guardian angel. I may have thrown my car out of alignment because it rattled afterwards, but I made it home okay. I think I may be cursed. On the way home for Christmas, I had a flat tire. Prior, I went home the weekend before T-giving and got a speeding ticket. Ohio is like a death trap for me. Either that or I'm simply a bad driver. I've decided my New Year resolutions will be to use better judgement in all aspects of my life. To be safer. To learn from my mistakes. And most of all, to listen more to my mother. It's time to leave all the poor decision-making in 2006.
This concludes our broadcast for the year. Happy New Year!
Sunday, December 31, 2006
I Should Not Be Allowed to Operate a Motor Vehicle
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Ohio is like a death trap for all of us. Which part of Ohio? I'm in NE.
My family is in Dayton/Centerville. I was merging onto 75.
Duh me! Now that I've gotten caught up a bit more I see you obviously talked about where your family lives. I love your writing and am playing catchup. One time I was at the cemetery crying (hysterically) at my father's grave. A kind lady came over to comfort me. I asked her when it would stop hurting so much. She told me 2 years. She gave me her number and asked me to call her when it had been 2 years to tell her how I was feeling. She was a very smart lady. She gave me a gauge, a hopeful light at the end of the tunnel. I found that after about 1-1/2 years I could think of my dad without being overwhelmingly sad. I used to sit and look at his picture before work so I could cry it out before I started my day. Somehow that helped me get through the day most days without crying. Its been 6 years and I still have my moments, but most of the time while I just can't believe how life has gone on without him I can remember his wicked sense of humor and overwhelming presence without being sad. There was a lot of dysfunction in our relationship and his relationships with everyone in the family, and I think the sense that now nothing could ever ever be fixed added to my pain. Anyway, hang in there. It definitely gets better. Its said that anything you put online is there forever no matter how hard you try to erase it. Maybe it would help to put up a tribute to your dad online..even if you're the only one who sees it right now. I like the idea of it being there forever. Just a thought. ..and if you've already done that and talked about it..remember I'm still playing catchup!
I know it's going to take years to finally make peace with my father. Thanks for the encouragement. He and I also had a somewhat dysfunctional relationship making my loss even more difficult. I did post a tribute on him a couple of weeks ago. It's weird knowing people read it and knowing what I went through with him, but in some way, it helps me cope.
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