Shit Happens

I'm hating Chicago right now. At this very moment, I'm supposed to be in Ohio attending a bridal shower followed by a bachelor party. Mother nature sucks. We had some heavy rain here recently thus leading to roads flooding. I attempted to drive to Ohio last night. I left at 5:30 and hit the usual rush hour traffic. Then everything seemed fine. Then everything was terribly wrong. About a few miles from the Indiana state line, I hit some major traffic. I sat in this traffic, not moving, for over 2 hours. The nearest exit was 2 miles away translating into a mile an hour. My friend was supposed to come with me but flaked at the last minute. It sure would've been nice to have some company, then again, I was too stressed out to be good company. Soon it was 10pm (11pm Ohio time) and I just gave up. I was exhausted and decided to leave early in the morning. I drove back to the city thinking I'd just go home and go to bed. This did not happen. I met up with a friend and stayed out drinking until 4am. Oops. Got up at 9am (should've gotten up at 6am) and attempted to drive while bleary eyed and somewhat hung over. Once again, traffic, then no traffic, then a sea of endless cars and semis. Last night I thought there was some random accident, but still traffic left over? Turns out, all the freeways going east were closed due to massive flooding. I once again sat in traffic for over 2 hours but this time my gas was running out and my cell phone dying. I really should be more prepared when I travel. Thank God for Honda Civics get such great mileage as my gas lasted those 2 hours and I finally got off and refueled. I then realized there was an alternate route but it was jammed as well. Going home was futile. I called my friends and told them the bad news. They understood but it sucks. I was really looking forward to seeing them. I will see them in NY at the end of September hopefully, that is, if there isn't a tsunami keeping us apart. I'm tired and frazzled and disappointed and it's only Saturday afternoon! What else is going to happen this weekend? I've been to Indiana twice this weekend and spent a lot of money on gas just to idle in my car for hours. Thank God for my trusty Ipod. I really should try to take a nap but I'm too worked up. I really should stay in tonight, but I know I'll probably venture out. The most frustrating thing is trying to get somewhere but you can't. I hate not being in control of situations. Sometimes you just have to accept the scenario and deal with it. For whatever reason, I wasn't meant to go home this weekend. I will attempt again in a couple of weekends.

Sitting in my car for hours, I had a chance to think a little. I mainly thought about the guys in my life. Every one of them seems like such a bad idea. I can divide them into 2 categories: Could hook up with them if I wanted to but bad idea and Would like to hook up with them but it's not gonna happen right now. So, I remain unattached. I should just stay away from all of them but I know I won't. I'm not in the mood to meet anyone new either. I don't want to even get married. I used to want to get married years ago, but then I quickly changed my mind. And maybe that's my problem. I'm happy for my friends who are/getting married, but I have no desire to do it myself. There's so much planning and when out of town guests can't come to town (like me) it sucks. I'm just not the marrying kind and going to weddings reminds me of that. Despite that, seeing some strippers and catching up with my friends who I haven't seen since Christmas and eating my mom's lasagna and swimming in our pool and seeing my cat and picking fights with my brother sure would've been nice. Next time.