Winter Storms

It's been snowing non-stop for the past two days. There's gotta be a few inches on the ground. The deep permafrost of winter has finally set in. I keep having dreams where it's summertime and I'm hanging out with people. I like these dreams because they evoke nostalgia of warmer times and maybe what used to be. I guess I'll have to wait a few months to revive those dreams. It's not even a week into December and we've already had two snowstorms. It's gonna be a long winter. Damn, why did I leave California again?

Right now I'm really frustrated. You say, what's new, eh? The thing is, I'm like completely broke. Seriously. I know I should go out and get a real job and quit interning for free, but a bit part of me will die if I do this. I will probably end up drinking myself to death if I can't do what I love for a living. Okay, I'm being somewhat hyperbolic but I just can't quit even though I feel everything is futile. Monday, I stayed until 8pm at my internship transcribing an interview. I was the last person to leave. I even saw the cleaning lady. Of course I didn't have to do this, but I wanted to show I was dedicated. Then I found out I'm not invited to their Holiday party which sucks because it's food and drinks and a chance for me to network. Unfair. At least someone was nice enough to buy me lunch today for helping him out with a project. I hear they pay their freelancers well so if I could freelance regularly for them, I may be able to get by. Maybe. It's all up in air right now since the holidays are rapidly approaching. I really need to talk to my boss and see what opportunities are available. I guess I think if I work hard and do well I'll be rewarded, but maybe I'm wrong to have that mentality. I don't know exactly what I should do. I wish I didn't have to worry about this stuff. I keep thinking being a starving artist is good because maybe I can lose some poundage from it but in order to lose weight I'd have to give up drinking and I don't wanna do that. Maybe I'll just put myself on a liquid diet. Besides the Time Out shut out, I have two other Xmas parties going on next week and a concert so it's not so bad.

The rest of this week I have a few articles due but with all this snow, it makes me feel unmotivated. I found out I'm going to interview the band The Walkmen which is totally cool because they are an excellent band. Something to lift my Xmas spirits, I suppose. I don't have much or any money for Xmas presents, but I remember how a few years ago I was working on The Wayne Brady show in LA and they had all these gift giveaways, so I took a bunch of stuff and gave them as Xmas gifts. I may try to scrounge around and do the same again this year.

I'm also kinda pissed at one of my roommates. He keeps bringing some chick home every night at like 3am and because my room is next to his, I can hear them having sex. At 3am on a Monday. They are loud and it's so disrespectful that sometimes I can't sleep. I don't know how to approach this subject because I can't tell him not to bring this chick home and I do still owe him money for utilities, but c'mon! I don't think I wanna live with him anymore. When the lease is up, I'm either gonna stick with my other roommate or get my own damn place. I need a tranquil environment not hearing some loud mouth Eastern European chick getting off all night long. But, I digress.

I guess I'm just gonna keep working hard and see what happens and pray that the money fairy delivers a large sack of money my way or something. I do have quite a bevy of social activities in the next couple of weeks to keep me occupied: concert on Sat, 2, maybe 3, holiday parties next week, Aimee Mann show, open bars, David's Swedish goodbye dinner, another My Open Bar event, and Wunderkind's second sketch show, movies to watch, books to read. Just gotta make the best of everything...