Lazy Days

It's been a week since Lolla, and I'm still tired. I realize I've worked over a week straight without a break. I didn't even get to sleep in last weekend. Blasphemy. This weekend I plan on just relaxing, maybe hitting the pool, sleeping in and checking out some places in the 'hood. Yunno, doing the stuff I feel like I never get to do. It's crazy-in three weeks I'll have to move again. I have no idea where I'll go. It's become an adventure. Every month I'll live in a new place. No, I'd like to find a more permanent place, but the idea of having a roommate again isn't appealing. Plus I'm getting used to my luxury, penthouse living.

Lately on Facebook, I've discovered a lot of my high school/childhood friends are on there. It's surprising to find out how many people from my hometown/high school live here in Chicago. It does make sense. Chicago is the next biggest/coolest city outside of OH. I mean, why would anyone want to move to Indiana? I know I'll never hang out with these people, but it's cool knowing they exist here. Some of my old friends still look really good, while others look unrecognizable. The years have been hard. I found my oldest childhood friend. She's married with three kids. It's strange to think when you're younger, where you'll end up. I remember playing MASH with my friends as a six year old. Yunno, the game where you give names of guys or girls you like, your fave color, where you'd like to live, etc, then by process of elimination your future is told. Now we're all adults playing house for real. It's sad how fast time goes.

This week I haven't done much. I even turned down an open bar one night. I just haven't felt motivated in going out, especially since I live all the way south now. It takes effort to leave the hood. The weather has been surprisingly nice, too. Soon, summer will wane and fall will be here. My friends will move away and I'll be sad. Luckily, there are some good concerts coming up in the next couple of months to assuage me. I really want to travel more. I want to take all the money I make and blow it on travel. There's a chance I might go to Austin in October. I want to go there and Nashville, and KY and CA and the Caribbean, etc. Just not enough time and money to do everything, but I will try to do so somehow.

One of my friends remarked this week that I'm alive and living my life. Sometimes I think that, sometimes not. If I was really living my life, I'd be in Europe right now. I guess I've sorta turned things around. For the first time all year, I have money coming in, albeit it's not a job I enjoy. Monday will mark the four month anniversary of the boyfriend of me. I realize this is the second longest relationship I've ever been in, which isn't saying much. The first was five years...Five years, four months, it's all relative. I think I'm someone who takes relationships very seriously. I don't get into a relationship with just anyone. Plus most of the guys I usually attract are very non-committal. So for me to find a guy who I really like, who mutually likes me and is committed, well, maybe that's half the battle.