Bon Voyage

In a few hours, I'll be on my way to Vermont. Whenever I know I have to get up early (like 6am), I can't sleep. I suppose I will be able to sleep once I get to Vermont, but then again, I have to finish the My Open Bar newsletter from the hotel. I haven't really thought much about the trip yet. Starting Wed., I'll be more set in vacation mode. I have no clue what I'm going to do when the boyfriend is at work. I guess I'll have to explore quaint White River Junction on my own. I hope I don't have to hang out with his co-workers too much. We've already discussed how we have to be well-behaved around them. I'm almost afraid to mention My Open Bar to them. Come Thurs, the boyfriend will be done with work and then we can enjoy the next couple of days trolling around VT. It's so surreal that I'm going. It's always been a fantasy of mine to go to New England, especially during the fall. I never thought in a million years I'd go to VT, so it's sorta exciting. I hope it's everything it's supposed to be. I will have my computer with me so I'll try to do some remote blogging from there if I get bored. I'm glad the hotel at least has a pool. What's really pathetic is today will be the first time I've been on a plane in almost a year. I really should get out more often.

Over the weekend, my friend had her going away party. It was a lot of fun. About 80 people showed up. I gotta a little toasted. Hell, I even threw up. I was so hung over on Sunday but I know a lot of other people were also. It's not good to mix a lot of hard liquor. But, I guess it was worth it. The boyfriend was in Austin all weekend and we really missed each other. Everyone kept asking me why I didn't go with him and yunno, it's not a big deal. It's not like we have to do everything together. Sometimes it's good to miss someone. But he's back now so I'm happy. I definitely don't go as crazy as I use to when a boyfriend went away. I am able to handle the boyfriend going away without getting too upset, although I still get a little upset. I'm just better at suppressing it now. Plus I do have my own life and things to constantly do.

This is my second week as editor and I think everything is going swimmingly. A lot of what I do is very tedious and sometimes stressful so I can see myself burning out pretty fast. It takes me days to find quality events. There are always errors to fix. But, I do like the gig and think it'll be good for me. If it was a full-time thing right now, I don't think I could handle it. But, it's good to start out small for now and see where it goes. Someday I think I'd like to start my own publication in some smaller town. It's totally possible.

So, my friend is off to New Zealand soon. I haven't given it much thought considering I know I'll still be in contact with her all the time. It's weird saying goodbye to people, especially people you might never see again. It's like you remember what season it was or what they were wearing or where you said adieu. It's like you have to hold onto the moment and remember it because it's never going to be the same again. It seems like in the past year, I've had a lot of these moments. And these people are simply irreplaceable. Moving away is a part of life. I think the older we get, the less we see the ones we care about. Sad but true. It's so hard to find the time, especially if certain people are half way across the world. One reason I'm glad I'm taking over as editor is so I can keep my friend (and former boss') spirit alive. Someone asked me if I'm taking over as social chair for our group of friends. I'm not as social as she is, so I don't think so. But, I feel like I can keep everyone connected through My Open Bar. Otherwise I probably wouldn't see certain people anymore. It's going to be interesting to feel the impact of her leaving.

I think my life is so different than it was a year ago. Maybe it's a lot better. I'm doing a lot of cool things and I'm in a relationship and I'm going to fucking Vermont. There are always going to be frustrations, but I'm really trying to focus more on the positive and keep hoping everything is copacetic.