The Week So Far

It's been yet another busy week so far. On Tuesday, I put together my first newsletter as editor. Overall, I think it turned out well even though we were down some writers. I think the hardest part about the job is staying organized. I get so many emails that I have to label them in order to keep track. Today I hired two new writers who I've never met. Unfortunately they won't get paid like the rest of us, but they are okay with that. So now we have six writers and me at the helm. So far I like the job. It makes me feel important on some level. It makes me feel like I accomplish something every week. We are throwing a Halloween party at a loft on Halloween, so that's going to take some PR work. I think I'm going to enlist the boyfriend as my editorial assistant to help me proofread everything.

Yesterday I started a possibly indefinite temp job. They are a small company that'll probably need me to come in once in a while and help out. I found everyone to be super nice. My boss was interested in my writing and even went out of her way to call someone she knows to see if they needed an extra writer. I like that I don't have to hide the fact I'm a writer like I've had to do in most of my jobs. Hopefully they'll need me to come in on a weekly basis. Even if I only come in once a week, it's something I can manage. I need to have a steady paycheck while waiting for those writing checks to flood in.

I feel like my "job" is endless. I always have to field emails and write stuff. This time next week I'll be in Vermont and I'm really hoping I won't have to do a lot of work. I'm hoping I can relax and have a real vacation for once. I'm really looking forward to the trip. We are driving up to Burlington for the weekend and staying at a hotel overlooking the lake. I hear Burlington is very cool. Maybe I'll love it so much, I'll end up living there. Like in the movie Baby Boom. Diane Keaton plays a high power exec who ends up moving to the countryside to get away from her stressful NY city life. Then again, I can't see myself living in the country.

This weekend is my friend's big going away party. We talked a bar into having an open bar for an hour and drink specials. I know it's going to be pretty crazy. I can't believe she's moving to New Zealand! I had a dream the other night where I felt completely abandoned. I wonder why. This weekend the boyfriend will be in Austin for a wedding, which makes me uneasy. I tend to freak out when he's not around. I'm much better when he's around. I guess I have to keep busy and try not to miss him too much. When I'm alone with my thoughts, I have a tendency to create false fantasies, like I think he's cheating on me or something. I get really paranoid. I try to internalize all of this but it doesn't always work. This weekend will also mark our six month anniversary. I guess I base it on the first night we "hooked up," not when it became official and everything. I don't have many complaints about the past few months. There are some things about him that irritate me, naturally, but sometimes that's me being my neurotic and controlling self. There are other things I'd like to see happen between us in the next six months or things that I wish were different. It's still weird having a boyfriend sometimes. The other day, two of my past "whatevers "contacted me wanting me to hook up with them. They know I have a boyfriend, but it doesn't mean anything to them. I suppose I use to have things for guys with girlfriends. I'm flattered those guys like me, and I feel bad for rejecting them, but that's the way it just has to be.

Today I'm interviewing the band Deerhunter, which is cool. Tonight and Sunday night I'm seeing shows then Tuesday I'm off to VT. I just need everything to calm down a bit. Maybe picking some apple on a farm in VT will help.