All the Twinkling Lights

After work, I walked through downtown. The lights are all green and red and white and sparkly. It's frigid out. Snow and ice are permenantly cemented on the ground. Then it strikes me: it just doesn't feel like Xmas. Time doesn't stop, even at the end of the year, not for a holiday. Things slow down, but you keep living and going. At the end of the year, we tend to reminesce about the year that was or will be. But life is cyclic, a great circle that keeps moving forward. When we wake up on Jan. 1st 2007, we'll still have to deal with the same bullshit. Then I begin to think about how I don't hang out with a lot of the people I did this time last year. I don't see Jaime. Or PJ. Or even Jen so much. And in a year will I still talk to Ex Boyfriend or Cancer Guy? Or will they too fade away? I've made a lot of new friends this year, people I didn't know last year. I wonder if in a year if they'll be in my life. I know there are a certain group of friends who'll be in my life no matter what. Those are the people I grew up with. Friendship is about longevity which is a rare trait. You have to hold those frienships close to you and hope they don't break.

I've learned you can't give up on people. Time is essential because sometimes people come around. But if you put the effort in and keep trying, and they don't respond, then let them go. And if it's meant to be, they'll come back to you someday. And if not, you'll at least have the memories of what once was.