Anonymous Notes

It is snowing outside right now. There's a couple of inches on the ground. It's mid-April. I think the Apocalypse is upon us. Jesus will be returning shortly. I think I should move to Florida to combat such erratic weather. Yesterday I found out one of my friend's mom passed away. This will be the second friend in the past few weeks who has lost their mother. I keep thinking how unfair it is to be this young and without a parent. Then again, life is unfair. I never know what to say in that sort of situation, but I feel I understand a little more than others since I've been through it with my dad. I think we should start a counseling group. This week I've been trying to focus on other things besides relationship issues. Luckily, I have some fun events to attend the rest of the week to occupy my time temporarily. More on those later.

In the meantime, here are some notes to people who at some point (whether they wanted to or not) have read my blog:

To My One Friend:
I'm no longer pissed off at you. It took me a while for us to be cool. I have new found respect for you. I'm glad we've remained in touch. I think you're really smart and creative and I hope we can collaborate on some projects soon. You are one of the first people I've been able to truly be friends with after the fact, although I admit sometimes I think about those other things. But I'm glad we worked through it. I was wrong about you, for the better.

To My One Friend:
Even though you are a few years younger than me, I admire you quite a bit. You remind me a little of myself at your age: seeing the world for the first time, being so far from home, your wanderlust, and independent spirit. I hope we'll always be good friends. When you go away, I will visit you. We can learn a lot from each other. Maybe one day we can work on some projects together.

To My One Friend:
I really love spending time with you. You make me laugh. You challenge me. You are someone I can purge my soul to. You are complex and deep as a well. I can't find a negative trait about you, yet. I want to get inside your thoughts. I want you to purge your soul to me, too. Everything is pure between us right now, but I'm intrigued to see where our connection will lead. I think I may be slightly smitten with you.

To My One Friend:
The more I've gotten to know you, the more I realize what a moron you are. In due time, we will go our separate ways. The more time I spend with you, the more I realize how different our interests and approaches to life are. We do not have the same beliefs. I think you can be sorta spiteful. My opinion has changed about you, for the worse.

To My One Friend:
I'm glad through everything that has happened, we've remained friends. I'm glad I didn't write you off. Sorry about all the previous ill feelings. You are a good person. We are quite a like in a lot of ways. Thanks for forgiving me. I'm looking forward to Saturday night and others. I was wrong, for the better.

To My One Friend:
You are probably my best friend here in Chicago. You are always a positive influence on me. Your spirituality enhances me. You know how to keep it real. Despite all the bullshit we sometimes go through, we are both survivors to the end. In the immortal words of the Golden Girls, "thank you for being a friend."

To My One Friend:
I miss you and will come visit you this summer to save you from your ennui. Vegas? San D? You decide.

To My One Friend:
Sometimes I miss you. I wish you'd change your mind. I wish you'd quit confusing me with your mixed messages. I wish you weren't so elusive sometimes. I hope to see you soon and hopefully have some fun with you. If you'll let me.

To My Family:
All I can say is I love you guys. You are two of the strongest females I know. Thank you for putting up with me and for your undying support and advice. Please come visit me here in Chicago!

To My New Friend:
Thanks for supporting the blog. It's nice to know there is someone else out there who can relate to my experiences and who also doesn't hold back. I look forward to trading more failed relationship and boy drama stories with you.