So It Goes

I feel like I'm never gonna get it together. Of course with that attitude I won't, but it just seems like certain things aren't meant to be with me. So, I started a new job on Wednesday. This one was potentially supposed to last a while, possibly be permanent. For two days I was an executive assistant to a CEO of a company. The company was small, I could wear jeans to work, etc. I thrive in an assistant role. I've had a couple of jobs doing this, and it's so much better than doing data entry all day. Of course being an assistant also involves doing a lot of tedious office work, but it's better than some things. I'm good at multi-tasking and getting things done. Yesterday, I was late to work. Only like 10 minutes, but apparently my new boss found this unacceptable and decided he didn't want me to come back. I know I should've been on time, but c'mon! I even emailed him last night professionally asking for a second chance, but he wouldn't budge. So now I'm back to square one. If I have to work in an office, I want to work for a small company with a casual dress code. I have no desire to work for a corporation. What it comes down to is I'm truly unemployable. And to make matters worse, my friend jinxed me. This is the second time I've been jinxed with a job. I think I need to find something a little more accommodating like a non-office job. Last night I met someone who suggested being a dogwalker or working in the service industry. I don't think I have the skills to be a waitress or bartender. I wish I could find a cool production gig. I mean, the new Batman film is shooting here this summer. I wish I could get on that. I just need a somewhat fun summer job. Big sigh.

Last night I saw a sneak preview of Knocked Up, and I must say it was really good. Possibly one of the best films I've seen in a while. Even better than 40-Year Old Virgin. Judd Apatow is a genius. If Freaks and Geeks and Undeclared weren't brilliant enough already. I love how he recycles the same actors. There's a great line where one of the women says you shouldn't accept guys for who they are. She comments: "If you're a critical enough, the person will feel so down on themself and will force to change." I like that approach better. The movie definitely made me not want to have kids, though. I think I'll adopt. Also this week I finally saw Grindhouse. It was gory as hell, but a lot of fun to watch. That's it in movie news for the week.

I've come to the conclusion I'm totally drawn to guys with issues. I don't know what it is about guys who drink way too much. I think on some level I feel like I can save these guys with said issues. Plus it makes things more interesting. I eschew normal, but at the same time, their issues become my issues. I think I may have pushed someone away with my boldness this week. Someone was led to my blog by Googling "everyone is damaged in relationships." Makes sense. Sigh. I've also decided to focus on self-improvement. I think I need to lose some weight. I want to be a little more toned, like Ashley Judd or Rose McGowan. I don't know how I'll accomplish this because I don't like to work out. I'll figure it out. I should also start dressing a little more feminine. I'm most comfortable in jeans and t-shirts, but maybe once in a while throw on a skirt or something. Right.

The moon is full moon. I have a feeling some interesting things are about to occur. I feel more intune with the universe at times like these. Strange, random, and unexpected things seem to manifest. Last night I had a run in with a bunch of guys wearing ruffle shirts and wristbands saying they'd just come from a wedding in Compton. A complete lie, but entertaining nonetheless. I discovered last night there's a deck at my place. I've been living there for a month and had no idea. Huh.

Here's a cool website my friend just alerted me to. E-cards for those awkward occasions.