Summer in the City

Another Memorial Day Weekend is upon us signifying the unofficial start to summer. I can't believe it's summer already. We can also start wearing white pants again. The year is practically half over. I've been sorta nostalgic of late. This weekend marks my third anniversary living in Chicago. Yes, I've been a Chicagoan for three whole years now. I never thought I'd last this long. I mean, I went to L.A thinking I'd only be there for 2 months and ended up spending 5 years there. You just never know. Chicago has grown on me in the past 3 years. I love it with all my heart even though it kicks my ass sometimes. I'm always re-discovering the city, finding new places, new neighborhoods, and making new friends. Like tonight. I was walking down a street and came across a pool behind a fence. It was some sort of dog boarding center and there was a pool. Interesting. I wonder if I'll still be living in Chicago this time next year. I wonder if I'll still hang out with the people I currently do this time next year. Maybe the people in my life now are the ones who'll get me where I need to be. Maybe they'll be the truest of friends. Maybe all the others, the ones who've disappeared from my life, weren't so true. My circle of friends seem to shift and change so frequently. I like to think I have a good gaggle of them right now. But will the friendships endure years and years? Or just until the end of the summer? Time goes by so freaking fast. It simply baffles me. I've now been single for a whole year. I've mentioned before what the past year has been like for me, but I do think if you are single, Chicago is the place to be. I'm really getting tired of all the games, all the excuses, flakiness, unfinished business, etc, that guys seem to exude onto me. Either we hang out or we don't. Either we're together or we're not. It is that black and white. But, whatever. If someone doesn't want to make time, fuck 'em. I have better things to do. Why are guys such jerks? Seriously. Just be honest. Just be a mature adult. I'm not exactly sure what I'm getting at except I dislike flakes. That's all. Follow through and consistency. Someone you can count on. That's what I do like. This time last year, I never imagined I'd be living with 2 guys again. I never thought I would meet so many guys within a span of a year. I never thought I'd still be struggling so much a year later. Soon, the Frenchies will go back to France and I'll be sad to see them go. That'll just motivate me to go over there and visit them. I need things to "heat up" in my life, so to speak. My life has been too tame as of late.

I'm 2 days into my new "job" and it blows. The only good things about it are I can wear whatever I want, I can work as much as I want, and there's free soda and juice. That's about it. Pretty much everyone there is a temp and these people are all total douchebags. I'm too attractive to be working in that office. Seriously. It's like working in a reject bin. I don't know what this says about me, but I'm gonna get the hell out of there. Today one guy was talking about how he's gonna start a blog. Um, yeah, good luck with that. No one gives a shit what asinine things you have to say. Everyone there is an aspiring something whether it's film critic or actor. This depresses me because I'm far more accomplished than any of these chads, yet I'm there for some reason. I will not divulge to anyone in the office I'm a writer. I'm keeping it a secret. I'll just tell them I have no life and aspire for nothing. Right. I need to find something better, something more fulfilling. Like by next week. My staffing friend better come through for me in a big way.

Summer of 2007 is here and I'm not sure what to except. Typically, I hate summertime. It's hot and usually things seem to slow down a little. I've spent several summers unemployed (like last summer). But I'm optimistic about the impending summer. I want it to be the best summer yet. I want it to be filled with boozing (especially free boozing), positive energy, sailing on the lake (Julz, put your certificate to use and take me sailing!!), traveling, road trips, good hooks up, lots of quality social events and company, concerts, writing accomplishments, money pouring in, etc. No more being down on myself. There's a whole world out ready to be experienced. I want this to be an awesome summer, goddammit because I need it to be. I need not to hate this season so much. I have a good feeling, though. Chicago is the place to be in the summer. Summer in the city. I just hope it's not too sweltering hot. June hopefully will be a good month. Something sunny and marvelous is on the horizon; I can sense it.

And as we all know, An End is a Start.