The Week Thus Far

It's been one of those weeks where I'm like, it's only Wednesday? Why can't it be Friday? The past two days have kinda kicked my ass. For Time Out on Monday, I did a bunch of errands including taking a trip down to the South Side. I know I shouldn't fear going down there, but when you're the only white person on the bus, there are reasons to be skeptical. I've also had to call a bunch of restaurant and bars asking them if they have a fireplace. It sorta amuses me when they're like: "What? Fireplace?" I guess it seems like a random question but it is valid. I have a slew of deadlines this week. I feel like one of those runners jumping over hurdles. Yesterday I turned in an article so that's done. Tomorrow I have some stuff due and also on Friday, Saturday, and Monday. Whew. Maybe I should cut down on the freelancing. Tomorrow and Friday I'm going to more concerts and yet another one next week. I keep telling myself I should take a break from shows, but then something comes up. I will probably decrease the shows come November. I then need to write up reviews for them but I'm not sure when I'll get around to it or if it's even necessary.

So Thursday night will be interesting, I think. There was a bit of drama Friday night with a certain someone and I'm sure there may be more when we go to the show tomorrow. Hopefully less. Actually, more than anything, I just need some answers. I have a lot of questions at this point. I think I need to not take things so seriously and approach the issues in a light hearted way. There's really not much I can do about the situation right now but accept it. I think I may try to use my persistent and persuasive characteristics to throw things in my favor, though. I may have the upper hand in this situation. I'm good at those things. I just want it to work out for the best. I want to quit feeling so upset about what's transpired. I guess it took me off guard but I realize most life changing events take you off guard. I just hope now we can openly communicate and possibly figure something out. But now the dynamic has changed between us. Things are different and I don't know if it's for the better. It's going to take time for things to either go back they way they were (which I don't see happening) or moving forward. I just need more time to deal with it. Another thing I realize is I like to take things as far as they'll go in relationships. I'm the kind of person who sees things through to the end, kind of finishing what was started. I don't like to sit here and think "what if?" "What if this or that happened?" I'd rather know. I need to get people out of my system; I need to have things run its course. It helps me to move on when it doesn't (and always) work out, yunno? Because I can be satisfied knowing at least I did everything I could. So lately I'm bothered because a couple of things simply need to run their courses until I'll feel okay with the situations. It's time for things to come full circle.

Anyway, I can't focus on that, now. I have writing to do. I have social activities this weekend. I have horror films to watch. I have hurdles to surmount. Life is so complicated sometimes.