Kicking Myself

So, beginning where I left off on Wednesday, I went to both Cut Copy shows and they both were fantastic. I almost liked the early show better despite it being, well, early, and it being all ages which meant dealing with 15 year olds jumping around. The late show had a different vibe to it. An older crowd and drunk people. It was packed to the gills. I'm glad I got to experience both of them but from 6:30pm-1am I was concertgoing. I was pretty exhausted the next day. I felt like a truck had run me over. It was worth it though.

It's practically the summer concert season, so there's a lot of shows coming to town. I've been kicking myself for missing some of them. I wanted to see BRMC last Sunday, but didn't go. I wanted to see the Kills on Friday, but didn't go. I really should force myself to go to things but sometimes other things come up or I'm just too tired to do it. Then of course I regret not going. I'm going to be better at this. Every night there's just so much stuff going on around town. I want to check out more DJ sets, too. This coming week I'm going to three concerts and I better make myself go to all of them. I don't want to think about how I'm getting into Pitchfork and Lolla yet. It's such a hassle sometimes, but I'll be there--somehow.

The weather here has been utterly crappy. I don't understand why Chicago never gets a proper Spring. It's either cold or rainy or cold and rainy. Why can't it be 70 degrees and sunny everyday? I guess if I wanted that, I should move back to CA. But c'mon, already! I think the weather is affecting my mood. I've been concerned about a lot of things lately. Latent emotions have been stirred up with certain things. I'm also kicking myself for doing some dumb things. I really should know better by now. Live and learn, I suppose. I'm also anxious waiting to hear if I got that job. They are supposed to let me know by tomorrow, hopefully. If I don't get it, I don't know what I'll do. I'm still waiting on my tax return. I think I should have it this week. Like I mentioned before, I need things to change. They have to. I can't keep going a long without money and direction. Plus there are some people I haven't seen in a while, so I hope they come back to me soon. My life is lacking without them around.

Overall, I had a pretty low-key weekend. I went out for a couple of free Red Stripes Friday night and then last night went to a party, which was pretty fun. I think I've been sorta bored lately to the point where I started watching stupid movies. In the past week, I've seen "Cloverfield," the new Harold and Kumar and "Idiocracy. " I've suspended my Netflix to save money but now I'm having withdrawal. I'd much rather watch a movie on DVD then online but at least I have the option of watching stuff on my computer.

This summer, My Open Bar is going to play in a sports league consisting of dodgeball, whiffle ball, four square and other games competing against other teams. We get free shoes and shirts and then afterwards get an open bar. I'm not very athletic, but I think it'll be fun. I just want the free shoes. And free drinks.

Anyway, I'm hoping everything will work out okay and that the things I'm worried about won't be anything to worry about anymore.