Look Up

In the past couple of days, I finally feel like Winter's deep tundra is melting. I feel the ice breaking, so to speak. Maybe it just was the month of January itself. The first month of the year always sucks. Things are always slow. But now it's February. I've had the chance to work a couple of days this week. Nothing special. Yesterday I temped at Leo Burnett. For a big corporation, it wasn't too bad. I have a job interview next week for a real job. But, I have to take 2 tests and interview for it. I'm not a good test taker. My friend works at this place, so he got me the in. This is why sometimes it pays to work your angles. I've been inundated with writing assignments as well. I write for My Open Bar weekly and started writing news stories for the local music blog Radio Free Chicago. I also just got the greenlight to write an article on spec for a major local publication. Let's just say it rhymes with "leader." So, I have less than a week to write a 1,200 word music essay that may or may not get published. If it does indeed get published, my career and my bank account will be very happy. If I do not get this day job next week or if this article does not get published, I think I will give up on life. Seriously. I think I will isolate myself in a cabin in the woods like Thoreau. I'll write the sequel to On Walden Pond. Really. I will quit everything. Fingers crossed for now.

This morning I ran into a snag with my blog. In my previous post, I listed some dudes I've been involved with. Well, turns one of them read it. Oops. Here's what happened. Thanks to my trusty Site Meter, I was shocked and appalled to see his company name appear on it. Oh snap, he read it! This person never reads blogs, but one of our mutual friends does and emailed him the link. Our friend had no idea about our tryst but now he does. Double oops. Having this knowledge, I had the foresight to prepare. It's like knowing the bomb is gonna drop on Hiroshima and waiting for it to happen. So, I got on Instant Messenger this morning, and sure enough, guy I blogged about IM'd me about it. Surprisingly, he wasn't mad. He just told me to change his nickname. Done. In some ways, he knows how I feel about him now. It kinda created a dialogue and gave me the chance to clear some things up. Of all the guys I listed, he's the one I'm least bitter about. I'm glad he and I have remained friends. I guess I should be more careful next time. You just never know who'll read your blog!!

In other news, I have a "date" on Saturday afternoon. You see, I don't date. I don't know what you'd call my activity in the past several months. Casual hook-ups? Friends with benefits? This will be my first foray into internet dating, too. I've always been very anti-internet dating, but I'm making an exception because this person tracked me down. I have yet to meet him, so it's sorta a blind date I guess. There was that time my freshman year of college where my roommate tried to hook me up with one of her friends. We began emailing, talking on the phone, and sending letters for a few months. I hadn't even seen a picture of him. When I finally met him, I was gravely disappointed. He was a jerk in person. End of that. Come to think of it, when I met Ex Boyfriend, I had only seen one picture of him, but we'd been talking on the phone for a few months. In that case, it worked out. We met to work on a project and happened to start something quickly into it. So, here's hoping for the best. You just never know. When you meet someone initially, you always bring expectations into it. Sometimes people are different in person. Here's hoping I can finally break my "insanity" cycle (doing the same thing over and over hoping for different results.)

Tomorrow night is the big My Open Bar event. If anyone who reads this is in Chicago, come to Schuba's tomorrow night for FREE beer and FREE vodka and FREE Paul Frank clothes. I'm looking forward to it. It's gonna be a great networking event.